Today I had a very unfortunate update regarding the status of my back. It was a lot worse diagnosis than I had ever expected. I did pray before I walked into the office hoping it wasn't going to be cancer or anything extreme like that. Cancer for some reason is one of those things you never expect to happen to you and then "boom" out of nowhere you get the news.
Thankfully, that wasn't the case today. I'm very blessed knowing that its not as bad as it could be. However, it isn't good and I have a long future of treatments ahead of me to hopefully see some real serious results. I had my first adjustment today and I am a little sore. The good news is, is that I do feel a difference.
Without boring you the bottom line is that the Dr said that my back on an x-ray is that of a 60 year old woman. Which being only 33 isn't ideal. I have played sports my whole life and always been the "scrappy" and aggressive player that isn't afraid of getting hurt. Now, I'm paying the price of that dedication and commitment to my sport. If I had to do it all over again I wouldn't "not" have played in highschool and college but I think I would of done more after college to continually treat this injury.
The thing that brought tears to my eyes was hearing that if I don't do something about this quickly that I may not be able to pick my grandkids up when I'm older. This is what really broke my heart knowing that my "lack" of action and proactivity could rob me of the joy of having that wonderful joyful experience of being a very "active" and "involved" grandparent. I know that my kids are still so young that this shouldn't be something I should be worried about. To be honest, its not worry what I'm feeling but rather a severe burden of failure looming over my shoulders weighing my heart down. This was a preventable and controllable condition that I was simply lazy and apathetic about treating. I have no one to blame but myself. For all those out there struggling through disease, medical conditions, genetic defects, and other physically challenging health concerns that were not "their" faults and "not" in their control I feel completely shameful. This has taught me a very valuable lesson about that tomorrow can not wait for me to be healthy.
I will never ever feel like this again and will do everything I can do improve my health and wellness that I can.
Incredibly, I have of recent started shopping at Whole Foods. My husband and I have been a little skeptical about "vegan, vegetarian, and organic" eating mostly in part to the cost involved in doing that. At this point, I am open to trying new things and breaking down enough to start small and see where we go from there.
Just the other night I bought my 9 month old son some new snacks that were organic type of crackers. My 2 year old son found those on the counter this morning and after eating breakfast decided to try some himself. He then plopped on the couch full on snacking on these crackers. The interesting thing was, I was at first tempted to get after him for eating after breakfast. I stopped myself thinking, if he is going to eat something its best that it be a whole grain organic snack like that. So, I let him eat his heart away! The great thing is, is that my 9 month old son also likes them and enjoys sharing with his brother!
For all of you out there who already eat organic, vegetarian, or vegan I'm not on the wagon yet but I'm going to at least look in the wagon!
For all of you who do not eat this way and aren't even considering it I encourage you to at least be open to some small things here and there. You never know, tomorrow you could get a wake up call like I did today that will "force" you to improve your lifestyle, eating habits, and fitness status. I know I sure have!
Everyone have a great weekend.
Love on someone today!
I know I'm going too!!!
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