A Beautiful Day - 1/11/10

Well, today I made a decision when I woke up. I decided to take my boys out on a nice day to a playground and pack a picnic lunch. Of course I had many reservations taking a trip out of the safe confines of my home. However, I knew it was going to be a nice day and that my oldest son Clayton would enjoy the sunshine and fresh air. So off we went once everyone had ate breakfast. As Clayton played and I packed the lunch I kept praying to God I wouldn't have any major disasters. Clayton running off somewhere or worse someone taking advantage of my vunerability having two kids. All the worse case scenarios of course go through my mind. I am a very bad worrying parent and I know that with my faith I know better. However, it doesn't mean that I can stop worrying about my most precious treasures in this world.

I have to say that the afternoon was a blessed one. God not only answered my prayers for a nice day with my boys but he overflowed my cup with joy. Watching Clayton play and interact with the other children today was so amazingly fun. I missed Sean of course seeing all the Dad's that were able to be there with their kids. However, I tried to forego those sad feelings and just live in the moment and enjoy watching my son have fun. He was happy, content, and so excited to be there. As we drove off he kept saying, "Mommy, stop, stop Mommy." And I had to turn around and tell him it was ok, that we would come back sometime this week. I am excited for us to go back and hopefully, he will continue to improve his behavior in public so that I am more confident about taking him out more often.

I get so scared about the obvious obstacles of taking him out. But, I think right now its the potty training that is one of my top issues. Sean and I had a horrible incident with Clayton at Walgreen's one night. Clayton had a terrible accident involving number two and I know for a fact if Sean wouldn't of been there I might have called an ambulance. It was horrible. If something like that happened while I had both of the kids by myself, I'm not sure 911 wouldn't receive a phone call.

You think it funny or a little absurb for me to involve an emergency phone call with a toddlers lack of control but you weren't at Walgreen's that night. It was seriously a travesty of huge proportions! Plus, the Police get so many calls involving domestic situations that should not be considered emergencies I wouldn't think my situation any less important. I watched COPS one night on tv for lack of any other interesting entertainment options and saw a COP go into a trailer to calm down a couple who had gotten into a fight. The girl had thrown a cheeseburger at the guy and he called 911. Ok, so now does my scenario seem so trivial?

Anyway, all this to be said, that I'm learning to establish myself as a Mom who can handle two kids out in public with no help. I have to say though, that a lot of people who see me have always offerred to hold a door, or open one for me when I'm out and I can not tell you how much that means. If you are ever out and see a Mom struggling like me trying to juggle a infant and a toddler. Offer a helping hand and see how grateful that woman is. I can say this with great confidence because it will probably be me!

I hope you all had a great and wonderful day. I know its Monday but I have learned that we must be thankful for each day we are given. No matter the tedious and mundane duties we all perform so routinely on a Monday, each day is still a gift from God. I hope that when someday I go to heaven I can share with God that I did my best to make the most of each day and how thankful I was for each one He gave me.

Have a great rest of your week!
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