Reminiscing about my old work versus my new work

I was thinking about my past life as a Account Executive for wholesale lending financial banks a few years ago. As I was preparing breakfast for my 2 year old this morning with my eyes stinging from not getting enough sleep last night. I remembered this same feeling as I would get ready for work when I was single. I remember getting my business suit or outfit ready and jumping in my car ready for a long day out and about traveling from brokerage to brokerage. It was a lonely day for me. I talked to people all day but spent a majority of it alone driving. I think that is why I don't miss my old job at all and why it was not a hard decision for me to leave it behind once becoming a Mom. The stress I endured from all my clients, my staff, and my boss made it very easy to walk away as well. I remember it being 7pm at night and I answering my cell phone for a client only to hear a lot of profanity and yelling. My fiance' at the time (now my husband) sitting beside me telling me to just hang up. After finishing the phone call almost 45 minutes later he asked me why I had continued speaking to him after his treatment of me. I responded only to tell him that he was a very good client and that in order to keep him happy I knew that this is something he was known for doing.

Yesterday I wrote that if I worked outside the home that I know I would get home only to give my kids my "leftover" attention and energies. I hope by outlining a very small fraction of what I endured at my last full-time job. I did not want anyone to read that statement and become offended as someone who wrote me privately did. I apologize publicly to anyone who read this also and was angry with my own personal reflection. I will never write anything on this blog about anyone but myself and my own life. I never would want someone to think I'm judging others or other people's situations in regards to Motherhood or anything else.

I know everyone must make the best decision for their kids. And I respect everyone's feelings and opinions I hope that if or when you read my entries you understand this is a very "personal" blog. I do not write based on how I feel about others circumstances.

I hope this is a good preface for others for making their decision on whether or not to continue reading my entries.

With that being said, I welcome any and all comments hoping to get some good "Mom" feedback. I for one always appreciate good Mom dialogues. In fact, I live to read or hear it!