An emotional visit to McDonalds - 7/26/10

On Saturday we were supposed to meet with a potential baby sitter for my birthday this Friday. The normal girl that we use was unable to do it due to her professional working schedule. The girl ended up being a "no-show" which wasn't ideal but we made the most of out of it by going to SAMS Club for their sampling hour. It was so much fun. We enjoyed so many fun samples along with the boys getting to eat different things to their hearts content. It was so gratifying that their favorite samples were "healthy". They loved the fruit and the V8 Fruit Juice. Afterward, we took the boys to McDonalds as I had been promising to take Clayton their to their playplace for a few days. Its so hard for me to take them by myself because they usually run into two different directions and it becomes too stressful for me to handle on my own. If Calvin were older it wouldn't be a big deal because they could go and do the same things but because he is so small I can't let him climb the "big kids" side for fear he is going to get "trampled!"

So anyway, as we sat there as a family amongst a very "busy and loud" birthday part that was taking place at the same time. I didn't know they did birthday parties at McDonald's play places but I learned that day Saturday afternoon isn't the best time to go for a easy going play time. Clayton though, had a blast playing with all the kids and enjoying running around inside an air conditioned area! My husband and I sat there and enjoyed seeing our boys having fun. Its times like these that I thank God so much for what blessings and gifts He has given to us. There is no greater joy in my life than to see my children happy. As I looked around I noticed that there was a couple with a twenty-something down-syndrome young man. I smiled at the couple and the young man. I hoped that he was having fun sitting around watching all the kids get crazy and be loud. I took Clayton to the bathroom and came back to see that the young man was trying to get up the play place play area against the wishes of the couple who seemed to be watching him as they seemed too young to be his parents. Sean shared with me that the couple had been trying for sometime now since I had been gone to convince him to get down for which he was not complying. I felt so bad for him because I am sure it felt unfair to him not get to get to play also. Being super hormonal and emotional I started to cry feeling empathetic to his situation and to that of the couple trying to help him.

I started to think about my baby that is growing inside me as each pregnancy a woman has there is always a chance of something happening within without your knowledge. I have always felt that if something would happen to my child that would impact their development internally or externally that it would of course be heart breaking. And at the same time I also believe that the love that I have for this life within is more powerful than any disappointment I may feel for the child or for us as parents for their future. I just know that all children are precious gifts from above and that each life has purpose and plan is very special.

My poor husband as he sat across from me at McDonalds with a wife breaking down in tears int he children's play place. He sat beside me feeling badly to see me crying so hard telling me it was going to be ok.

One thing about being pregnant for me is that emotions are a three-ring circus!

Either way, I thank God for children and for the amazing blessing it is to be a Mother. Anything that God may hand us I know has purpose and plan and ultimately is because He loves me and this child. I pray for this child's and all my children's healthy and safety daily. As I am sure you all do as well.