Do you ever feel like its the movie Groundhog's Day? I know we all have repetition in our lives. Daily we get up, brush our teeth, shower, etc. etc. As a Mom the constantcy of repetitiousness could cause a little insanity at times.
I think I have scrubbed my kitchen floor about 4 times in the last 3 days. The number of times juice, food, or other substances getting spilled on our tile floor is too many to count on certain days. I am thankful for the ability to clean it up and to make our home as organized as possible. Sometimes, there just isn't enough time in the day. I used to get so overwhelmed by all the work that I would just curl up in a fetal position and take a nap to forget all the messes and exhaustive cleaning that needed to be done around the house. Now, I try to chip away at it each day. The part that gets me everytime is that you take the initiative to clean it, get it exactly the way you want it only to do it all over again a few days later. There is a line in the Disney movie The Incredibles that always comes to mind when I contemplate this very truth. Mr. Incredible says, "I just want the world to just stay saved. I save the day and then I turn around and it needs saving again! I start to think, "I just saved it, it needs it again?" Ok, that isn't verbatim for those of you movie buffs but its paraphrased to meet my point. I think if I ever were to wish for anything I would ask God to help my house stay clean after I clean it. I would put in the hard work and then just bask in all its glory forever and ever! :)
I think all in all its just the way of the world to clean something, have to use it/it gets dirty, you clean it up again.
Severe repetition. Its the life of any Mom. For this stay-at-home Mom sometimes its just the name of my game. Hopefully, someday I'll get really good at it. :)
Dear Lord, please give me the strength, wisdom, and perseverence I need to keep the home that you gave to me and my family as well kept as possible. For all the laundry, vacumning, dusting, washing, scrubbing, disinfecting, sweeping, carpet cleaning, and everything else required please help me to do it and do it with the best of my ability as often as I can.
Amen.
Everyone have a wonderful week!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
3/26/10 - Putting it off no longer...
So, lets just say my laundry room was in a pretty bad state. I won't go into detail because I am very embarassed to say what exactly I had put off doing and cleaning. The good news is that it didn't take long to organize a few things, scrub the floor, and dust. The nice thing is, is now when we walk in from the garage to the house we won't be stepping on or around anything anymore. I have been meaning to get to that for awhile now but unfortunately, other things had been calling my name this week.
I had also needed to clean and organize my master bedroom. For some reason, I have a horrible time keeping it together in our room. I think in part its my "haven". The one place I get to consider my "resting" area. So, cleaning my "resting" area isn't ever ideal. It wasn't gross or had anything detestable in there - other than dust. Which I took care of yesterday. But when you don't put something away right after your done with it, things get a little disorganized. I was writing my brother an e-mail today stating how I wish and dream of a celebrity organizer to come to my house and show me how to store and organize our "stuff" in a way that is asthetically pleasing and "logically" placed. When we go to San Diego I absolutely adore going to the Container Store. If you have never been you need to go to their website immediately. They own a label named ELFA that is a storage and organized base for every room in your home. Sean actually gave in when we went there and had an open mind. He spent over an hour checking out the design area for garages and got some great stuff to help keep "part" of our garage organized. That also is a work in progress. :) I think the next time we get a chance to go to San Diego I am going to have to plan just a whole afternoon of me going there to talk to a design expert on closet, pantry and children's play room and closets so that I can be better prepared for when we move to another house. That is the worst thing sometimes about being a military spouse. Until we retire we are going to be "temporarily" living everywhere. So, we can't truly "invest" permanently in certain things because its just not realistic to be able to bring that everywhere you go or for it to stay in good condition when you install and un-install this specific equipment.
I am thankful that I was able to get the kitchen cleaned, supper prepared, my laundry room cleaned/organized, and now I am done typing so I press on and hit my closet.
In all honesty, I wouldn't mind taking a whole day to just clean and organize. No interruptions, just like an 8/9 hour work day that I used to do before kids. Maybe sometime soon in the future, I can somehow schedule this to make it happen so I can make life a lot more manageable and organized for our family.
Happy Friday everyone! Hope you have a great weekend!
I had also needed to clean and organize my master bedroom. For some reason, I have a horrible time keeping it together in our room. I think in part its my "haven". The one place I get to consider my "resting" area. So, cleaning my "resting" area isn't ever ideal. It wasn't gross or had anything detestable in there - other than dust. Which I took care of yesterday. But when you don't put something away right after your done with it, things get a little disorganized. I was writing my brother an e-mail today stating how I wish and dream of a celebrity organizer to come to my house and show me how to store and organize our "stuff" in a way that is asthetically pleasing and "logically" placed. When we go to San Diego I absolutely adore going to the Container Store. If you have never been you need to go to their website immediately. They own a label named ELFA that is a storage and organized base for every room in your home. Sean actually gave in when we went there and had an open mind. He spent over an hour checking out the design area for garages and got some great stuff to help keep "part" of our garage organized. That also is a work in progress. :) I think the next time we get a chance to go to San Diego I am going to have to plan just a whole afternoon of me going there to talk to a design expert on closet, pantry and children's play room and closets so that I can be better prepared for when we move to another house. That is the worst thing sometimes about being a military spouse. Until we retire we are going to be "temporarily" living everywhere. So, we can't truly "invest" permanently in certain things because its just not realistic to be able to bring that everywhere you go or for it to stay in good condition when you install and un-install this specific equipment.
I am thankful that I was able to get the kitchen cleaned, supper prepared, my laundry room cleaned/organized, and now I am done typing so I press on and hit my closet.
In all honesty, I wouldn't mind taking a whole day to just clean and organize. No interruptions, just like an 8/9 hour work day that I used to do before kids. Maybe sometime soon in the future, I can somehow schedule this to make it happen so I can make life a lot more manageable and organized for our family.
Happy Friday everyone! Hope you have a great weekend!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
3/25/10 - How I got my energy back!
Funny how much being healthier gives you more energy. Before I got pregnant with Calvin I was frequently complaining of lack of energy and constant fatigue. I thought I might have a thyroid problem or worse. I wasn't eating super healthy and I definitely wasn't exercising regularly. The good news was is that I wasn't overweight but I wasn't toned either.
As I woke up early this morning I jumped out of bed and instantly started to get ready to go to the gym. I would of been on time but my baby boy decided to sleep in this morning. I don't like waking any of my children up for any reason. So, I let him sleep and I was only 5 or 6 minutes late to my gym class. I really enjoying going to the gym classes because they give me the direction and motivation to keep going. Knowing that these lessons were created to work and tone as many muscles as possible also gives me peace of mind knowing I'm doing the right things.
Having low back problems my Dr. suggested that strengthening my core muscles would definitely improve his treatments. I have seen a big difference in my low back pain and also am able to do a lot more difficult levels of exercise than before. I remember going to a cardio challenge class and jump roping for the first time in years. This was almost three months (or more) ago and I seriously was winded after just seconds of jump roping. How embarassing! Now, I push myself and can jump rope fast and don't get winded anymore. There is one exercise that my instructor calls the bunny hop that is so hard. You are to squat down and by using the force in your arms to jump with both feet at the same time in seating position go forward. It doesn't sound hard but it is. My husband is 6'2'' and so his legs are much longer than mine so you would think it super easy for him. No. He agrees that it is very hard and super exhausting.
Tomorrow is my cardio challenge class and my goal is to be the best bunny hopper in the class. Not necessarily that I'll finish first because fast isn't necessarily always best. Being thorough and doing the exercise effectively means sometimes going a little slower so you can get the most out of it for your body.
I have seen several inches off my waistline and at least 4 pounds off the scale. I'm still nursing so I think the last of my pounds that I am wanting to lose will come off once I stop nursing. I lost 5 pounds when Clayton stopped nursing almost immediately but I weighed more than I do now. I have about 4 more pounds to lose to get to my goal weight and after I reach it I'll just focus on toning.
I'm not sure if any of you are lacking in energy or feel exhausted all the time but I really encourage you to consider working out. Unfortunately, it doesn't stop there eating right is a huge part of being healthy. I would start small and then feel accomplished in the successes you can have early on in the change. When I give myself hard and overwhelming goals regarding something I really struggle with I almost always fail and get discouraged. So, I have turned a new leaf and decided to focus on what I can push myself to do and get so excited that I push forward to a more challenging adventure.
I look forward to the next time I'm pregnant because my goal is to look like a fitness model who looks like its just belly. People told me that last time when I was pregnant with Calvin that I looked like it was just baby. I knew better and so did my "clothes". By keeping consistent and continually going to the gym all throughout my next pregnancy I am hoping that not only "me" being healthier will make a difference for my post-baby body but also with my energy level so I can be the best Mom I can be.
Hope your week has gone well!
As I woke up early this morning I jumped out of bed and instantly started to get ready to go to the gym. I would of been on time but my baby boy decided to sleep in this morning. I don't like waking any of my children up for any reason. So, I let him sleep and I was only 5 or 6 minutes late to my gym class. I really enjoying going to the gym classes because they give me the direction and motivation to keep going. Knowing that these lessons were created to work and tone as many muscles as possible also gives me peace of mind knowing I'm doing the right things.
Having low back problems my Dr. suggested that strengthening my core muscles would definitely improve his treatments. I have seen a big difference in my low back pain and also am able to do a lot more difficult levels of exercise than before. I remember going to a cardio challenge class and jump roping for the first time in years. This was almost three months (or more) ago and I seriously was winded after just seconds of jump roping. How embarassing! Now, I push myself and can jump rope fast and don't get winded anymore. There is one exercise that my instructor calls the bunny hop that is so hard. You are to squat down and by using the force in your arms to jump with both feet at the same time in seating position go forward. It doesn't sound hard but it is. My husband is 6'2'' and so his legs are much longer than mine so you would think it super easy for him. No. He agrees that it is very hard and super exhausting.
Tomorrow is my cardio challenge class and my goal is to be the best bunny hopper in the class. Not necessarily that I'll finish first because fast isn't necessarily always best. Being thorough and doing the exercise effectively means sometimes going a little slower so you can get the most out of it for your body.
I have seen several inches off my waistline and at least 4 pounds off the scale. I'm still nursing so I think the last of my pounds that I am wanting to lose will come off once I stop nursing. I lost 5 pounds when Clayton stopped nursing almost immediately but I weighed more than I do now. I have about 4 more pounds to lose to get to my goal weight and after I reach it I'll just focus on toning.
I'm not sure if any of you are lacking in energy or feel exhausted all the time but I really encourage you to consider working out. Unfortunately, it doesn't stop there eating right is a huge part of being healthy. I would start small and then feel accomplished in the successes you can have early on in the change. When I give myself hard and overwhelming goals regarding something I really struggle with I almost always fail and get discouraged. So, I have turned a new leaf and decided to focus on what I can push myself to do and get so excited that I push forward to a more challenging adventure.
I look forward to the next time I'm pregnant because my goal is to look like a fitness model who looks like its just belly. People told me that last time when I was pregnant with Calvin that I looked like it was just baby. I knew better and so did my "clothes". By keeping consistent and continually going to the gym all throughout my next pregnancy I am hoping that not only "me" being healthier will make a difference for my post-baby body but also with my energy level so I can be the best Mom I can be.
Hope your week has gone well!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
3/24/10 - Park, Picnic, Farmers Market Fun!
Everytime I go to my Dr.'s office on Wednesdays I always drive by this park that has a Farmers Market. It is placed right beside a children's play park so it is an ideal location for a Mom to bring her kids to play and get to visit the Farmers market after.
This morning I decided that we were going to make it to the park.
After my Dr.'s office I took the kids to the park and the boys had so much fun. The one unfortunate thing was a 5 or 6 year old girl who was also there who wanted to join our little group. She kept telling on Clayton, giving me updates on what he was doing, where he was, and I have to say it was very irritating. These types of kids usually are only-children and/or very lonely so I tried my best to be nice. After almost an hour of her bossing around Clayton, even pushing him once or twice, and constantly yelling at him I had to tell her that was enough and to please play away from him. Her grandmother was there with her but just sat at a picnic table observing. I kept thinking, she is going to intervene and tell her granddaughter that is not appropriate behavior or just to be nice and play. Nope, nothing was ever said. I tried to just ignore her but until they finally left a few minutes later did the situation resolve itself.
Once, Clayton had run around and played we decided to eat our lunch and were pleasantly surprised that Sean was able to join us. He has only been home from his business trip for a few days so it was nice to have a family moment. Like always, Clayton ate in small increments and kept leaving to go play. While Calvin ate quietly and very contently. This is every meal's routine. One eats with a focus and determination while the other is bored and very unimpressed. Funny, I wonder how long this will last.
Before leaving I got to check out the few vendors that had already set up as I had not known it didn't start until 1:00/2:00. We were leaving around 1:00 so there were quite a few of them that hadn't shown up yet. But, there were still enough there that I was able to pick up some very sweet, juicy oranges, fresh vegetables (artichokes, asparagus) and beautiful strawberries! I look forward to doing this again and until the hot weather finally arrives and decides to stay we will be enjoying an excursion like this as often as I am able.
Since I have been trying to eat healthier and try new ways of cooking/recipes Farmer's markets intrigue me for sure. The best part was watching Clayton ask for a sample of the oranges. He took one bite and asked us for more. So I bought a bag and peeled a huge one for him. Before we even left the parking lot he had it all ate. Then, as I was going to pull out of the parking lot, he asked me for more. So I peeled a second one. He ate that one before we got home. Does my heart good to see him enjoying fruit like that. I know that as a little kid I was very much like this as well. It was a great experience and I look forward to more Farmer's market, park, picnic fun!
Have an awesome wednesday!
This morning I decided that we were going to make it to the park.
After my Dr.'s office I took the kids to the park and the boys had so much fun. The one unfortunate thing was a 5 or 6 year old girl who was also there who wanted to join our little group. She kept telling on Clayton, giving me updates on what he was doing, where he was, and I have to say it was very irritating. These types of kids usually are only-children and/or very lonely so I tried my best to be nice. After almost an hour of her bossing around Clayton, even pushing him once or twice, and constantly yelling at him I had to tell her that was enough and to please play away from him. Her grandmother was there with her but just sat at a picnic table observing. I kept thinking, she is going to intervene and tell her granddaughter that is not appropriate behavior or just to be nice and play. Nope, nothing was ever said. I tried to just ignore her but until they finally left a few minutes later did the situation resolve itself.
Once, Clayton had run around and played we decided to eat our lunch and were pleasantly surprised that Sean was able to join us. He has only been home from his business trip for a few days so it was nice to have a family moment. Like always, Clayton ate in small increments and kept leaving to go play. While Calvin ate quietly and very contently. This is every meal's routine. One eats with a focus and determination while the other is bored and very unimpressed. Funny, I wonder how long this will last.
Before leaving I got to check out the few vendors that had already set up as I had not known it didn't start until 1:00/2:00. We were leaving around 1:00 so there were quite a few of them that hadn't shown up yet. But, there were still enough there that I was able to pick up some very sweet, juicy oranges, fresh vegetables (artichokes, asparagus) and beautiful strawberries! I look forward to doing this again and until the hot weather finally arrives and decides to stay we will be enjoying an excursion like this as often as I am able.
Since I have been trying to eat healthier and try new ways of cooking/recipes Farmer's markets intrigue me for sure. The best part was watching Clayton ask for a sample of the oranges. He took one bite and asked us for more. So I bought a bag and peeled a huge one for him. Before we even left the parking lot he had it all ate. Then, as I was going to pull out of the parking lot, he asked me for more. So I peeled a second one. He ate that one before we got home. Does my heart good to see him enjoying fruit like that. I know that as a little kid I was very much like this as well. It was a great experience and I look forward to more Farmer's market, park, picnic fun!
Have an awesome wednesday!
3/23/10 - Drama day...
Well, today was another regular Tuesday at my house. I went to my women's Bible Study and thankfully, I wasn't very late but I wasn't early either. I got to the group and we observed a preparatory service for Easter with prayer and scripture reading. It was very quiet and very low key. I enjoyed the scripture and prayer but have to admit as a Mother of two young kids I was already tired so having the lights low, quietyly read scripture, and a lot of silent prayer I had to fight not closing my eyes and getting a few zzz's.
When we finally got to the discussion we had a few interesting subjects of conversation and I definitely felt like there was a lot of overwhelming information that we were all sharing with each other. The study was great and a wonderful lesson on marriage. We are currently doing a study entitled Sacred Marriage. It is so interesting and although the actual foundational principles aren't complicated I still feel like they are so inspiring and challenging. Sometimes, it is the simplest of lessons that teaches you the most important principles.
After leaving, my oldest son decided to have a meltdown on the way home. So instead of stopping and letting him play at the McDonald's play area we went straight home. He was tired and was definitey showing his "not-so nice" colors. After feeding him and his brother some lunch I put him down for a nap. The attempt at a nap started at 1:00 and did not successfully happen until 4:00. I had to go in there 3 or 4 times before he was willing to break down and get the rest he needed. In his defense though, 2 of the 4 times I went in there he pooped in the potty once and peed the other time. So, I can't fault him for that and that is why I did not discipline him either of these times. Just put him back in his bed and told him to lay down. The last two times I have to say I had to discipline him. For some reason, my strong-willed child feels like its just a suggestion if I don't show him the seriousness of the situation. I'm trying so desperately to teach him each day how to obey with out me having to yell, threaten spankings, and/or having to spank or discipline. I realize that if I have more patience with him it might help. I have seen a difference but also, with him getting older he is learning how to push the envelope and so it is a constant everyday challenge for which I need to be on my toes to be as intentional about his parenting.
After this drama of the morning and afternoon. I decided I would take it easy on myself today and allowed myself to rest a little before pushing on to the evening. Little did I know I would wake up feeling worse rather than better. I try not to take naps during the day because there is so much to be done and a lot of times I don't feel more rested after it. The evening unfolded and definitely the drama continued in my house.
It wasn't until 11pm that I finally was able to take a deep breath and have some much needed peace that I didn't have all day.
It is days like this that make you appreciate the days that "nothing" happens and its actually maybe a little boring.
I'm glad I survived and that many lessons were learned by myself and maybe even a little for my son as well.
So thankful drama day has come and gone. I will be praying that this one counts for my quota for a few months. Or longer if possible.
Hope everyone else had a better and more beautiful Tuesday!
When we finally got to the discussion we had a few interesting subjects of conversation and I definitely felt like there was a lot of overwhelming information that we were all sharing with each other. The study was great and a wonderful lesson on marriage. We are currently doing a study entitled Sacred Marriage. It is so interesting and although the actual foundational principles aren't complicated I still feel like they are so inspiring and challenging. Sometimes, it is the simplest of lessons that teaches you the most important principles.
After leaving, my oldest son decided to have a meltdown on the way home. So instead of stopping and letting him play at the McDonald's play area we went straight home. He was tired and was definitey showing his "not-so nice" colors. After feeding him and his brother some lunch I put him down for a nap. The attempt at a nap started at 1:00 and did not successfully happen until 4:00. I had to go in there 3 or 4 times before he was willing to break down and get the rest he needed. In his defense though, 2 of the 4 times I went in there he pooped in the potty once and peed the other time. So, I can't fault him for that and that is why I did not discipline him either of these times. Just put him back in his bed and told him to lay down. The last two times I have to say I had to discipline him. For some reason, my strong-willed child feels like its just a suggestion if I don't show him the seriousness of the situation. I'm trying so desperately to teach him each day how to obey with out me having to yell, threaten spankings, and/or having to spank or discipline. I realize that if I have more patience with him it might help. I have seen a difference but also, with him getting older he is learning how to push the envelope and so it is a constant everyday challenge for which I need to be on my toes to be as intentional about his parenting.
After this drama of the morning and afternoon. I decided I would take it easy on myself today and allowed myself to rest a little before pushing on to the evening. Little did I know I would wake up feeling worse rather than better. I try not to take naps during the day because there is so much to be done and a lot of times I don't feel more rested after it. The evening unfolded and definitely the drama continued in my house.
It wasn't until 11pm that I finally was able to take a deep breath and have some much needed peace that I didn't have all day.
It is days like this that make you appreciate the days that "nothing" happens and its actually maybe a little boring.
I'm glad I survived and that many lessons were learned by myself and maybe even a little for my son as well.
So thankful drama day has come and gone. I will be praying that this one counts for my quota for a few months. Or longer if possible.
Hope everyone else had a better and more beautiful Tuesday!
Monday, March 22, 2010
3/22/10 - Wowwee Clayton's 3!!
What a weekend! So busy and so much fun. We had a birthday party for Clayton on Saturday. I had a very complicated week having my husband gone on a TDY (temporary duty) and having gotten a clogged milk duct on Tuesday through Wednesday. Trying to get all the cleaning, shopping and cooking done was a very good challenge for me to juggle my everyday responsibilities on top of all the party preparations. No matter what happened the week prior the day was an absolute blast and I could not have been more thankful for all who came to help us celebrate.
The bounce house came a day early because of a over-scheduled weekend by the company we rented it from. So Clayton had a preview of what was to come on Saturday. He enjoyed the jumping more than he did last year and I can't believe how much he has grown up since last year.
They delivered the cotton candy machine the night before also. So, I was able to get a lesson on how to work it. Still with the lesson I didn't do it very well but the good news is, is that even if it wasn't pretty, it worked and the kids loved it! :)
I had bought a pinata for Clayton and the kids which was also a big "hit". Clayton even got to open presents while the kids were here this year. Last year, we forgot and ran out of time. I promised myself this year to keep a schedule. I wanted to make sure that we got to do all the things I had planned. We played a game that my friend Jodie who is from England taught me how to play. Its called pass the parcel. A great way to get the kids involved and help the person who "wins" the game feel special by getting to have a present themselves.
The cake was beautiful. So excited that it turned out so good. I had fears that they lost my order and/or that it wasn't very good but Clayton saw it and immediately said, "whoa!" Its funny because he started to call the cake "birthday" instead of "cake". He loved the singing part just like he did last year.
It was such a beautiful day and we felt so blessed by all the successes of the day that we had planned for our little Clayton.
I had woke up at 4am that morning to start the cooking because some things just aren't as good cooked the day before. So 3/4 of what I had made I cooked the day of. Someday Clayton is going to understand truly how much work I put into his parties and that its another way for me to show him how much I love him. Until then, seeing a smile on his face, he enjoying a "free-for" all sugar day, and getting to laugh and play with all the kids who came to celebrate with him is thanks enough.
I will post pictures soon. :)
Hope you all had a great weekend!
The bounce house came a day early because of a over-scheduled weekend by the company we rented it from. So Clayton had a preview of what was to come on Saturday. He enjoyed the jumping more than he did last year and I can't believe how much he has grown up since last year.
They delivered the cotton candy machine the night before also. So, I was able to get a lesson on how to work it. Still with the lesson I didn't do it very well but the good news is, is that even if it wasn't pretty, it worked and the kids loved it! :)
I had bought a pinata for Clayton and the kids which was also a big "hit". Clayton even got to open presents while the kids were here this year. Last year, we forgot and ran out of time. I promised myself this year to keep a schedule. I wanted to make sure that we got to do all the things I had planned. We played a game that my friend Jodie who is from England taught me how to play. Its called pass the parcel. A great way to get the kids involved and help the person who "wins" the game feel special by getting to have a present themselves.
The cake was beautiful. So excited that it turned out so good. I had fears that they lost my order and/or that it wasn't very good but Clayton saw it and immediately said, "whoa!" Its funny because he started to call the cake "birthday" instead of "cake". He loved the singing part just like he did last year.
It was such a beautiful day and we felt so blessed by all the successes of the day that we had planned for our little Clayton.
I had woke up at 4am that morning to start the cooking because some things just aren't as good cooked the day before. So 3/4 of what I had made I cooked the day of. Someday Clayton is going to understand truly how much work I put into his parties and that its another way for me to show him how much I love him. Until then, seeing a smile on his face, he enjoying a "free-for" all sugar day, and getting to laugh and play with all the kids who came to celebrate with him is thanks enough.
I will post pictures soon. :)
Hope you all had a great weekend!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
3/18/10 - Yes, I'm feeling so much better!!
Wow! What a difference 24 hours makes! Today I woke up and I lay awake looking up at the ceiling with a smile. I was praising the Lord and thanking him over and over for helping me feel better. I couldn't have been given more motivation to work hard today and get a lot done. Including spending more quality time with my kids. It was great to feed Clayton a good breakfast, and nurse Calvin with out excruciating pain. I got to clean a lot and got a ton of stuff on my list for yesterday accomplished here and there when the kids' schedule allowed me too.
I even got to my Dr. appointment that allowed me to get adjusted for the long weekend ahead. This thanks to my great friend Jodie who offerred to help me while Sean was gone. Her support and encouragement this past week has been so uplifting and energizing. Just having the short trip back and forth to the Dr gave me a great break throughout today that relieved a great amount of stress. I could not be more grateful to her for her willingness to inconvenience herself in order to help me out.
I look forward to tomorrow because having this party looming over my shoulder has been a little daunting having no husband around. If he were here I know I wouldn't be stressing so much because I truly enjoy hosting events at our home. My mother instilled in me the desire to host as I watched her growing up. I can't count how many times I had to clean on a weekend because my Mom told me that "we were having company". Oh, how I hated "company" growing up because this was not a "fun" thing to do on a weekend for a kid. I am grateful however, for my Mother teaching me the importance of teaming up as a family to help the overall goal of serving others through hospitality.
I know I could of done a Chuck E Cheese party or have it at another venue. However, I think in my mind what would Clayton most enjoy? What would given him the most happiness? In the end, as I considered this I knew the answer was a party here. He loves being home and loves even more when we have "company". Whenever people come over you should see the look on his face. It is priceless. On another note, he then proceeds to show off and talk a million times too fast. People who come over here can tell how much he appreciates them being here because all he can do is jump off the walls with energy. My son has a lot of energy but when people are here it multiplies time and time again. So, I knew that he would love this. Plus, last year we had his party here and I just kept thinking how amazing it was to see his face throughout the afternoon. How much fun he was having. Looking at at face just gave me a warm and fuzzy feeling I'll never forget. It was my "first" Mom-organized birthday party as he turned 2 and for his 1st birthday we were in Florida with no family/friends on a TDY for Sean's preparations to come to Vegas to work.
We look forward to everyone coming on Saturday. I feel like its Christmas again because I can not wait to see his face with the bounce castle, and to see him enjoy the cotton candy machine. I'm going to plan a few games for him to play with the kids as this year being 3 he can really understand what's happening. He's been to a few parties since and the whole cake and candle part is always so intriguing for him. He loved being sung to last year too so I'm so excited!! Its better than "my" birthday times a billion!!! I guess that's what is so awesome about becoming a parent is that transition from it's about "my" birthday to "what can we do that's awesome for our kids" birthdays!!
I will plan on posting a lot of fun pictures. Including, his transformer cake that I am praying turns out great. Also, I got Sean a Optimus Prime costume that I am hoping Clayton gets a kick out of. :) The really cute thing is, is that Sean isn't hating the idea of dressing up. Even wants to use it as his Halloween costume this year. Hee hee. So cute.
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.
I am taking a deep breath as I start my food prep tomorrow.
I spent an hour to organize my list to prevent day of stress!! :)
That is my goal. Prevention of stress. So that on Saturday I can enjoy my son celebrating his birthday and of course spend time with all our wonderful guests that have blessed us by wanting to come over.
I even got to my Dr. appointment that allowed me to get adjusted for the long weekend ahead. This thanks to my great friend Jodie who offerred to help me while Sean was gone. Her support and encouragement this past week has been so uplifting and energizing. Just having the short trip back and forth to the Dr gave me a great break throughout today that relieved a great amount of stress. I could not be more grateful to her for her willingness to inconvenience herself in order to help me out.
I look forward to tomorrow because having this party looming over my shoulder has been a little daunting having no husband around. If he were here I know I wouldn't be stressing so much because I truly enjoy hosting events at our home. My mother instilled in me the desire to host as I watched her growing up. I can't count how many times I had to clean on a weekend because my Mom told me that "we were having company". Oh, how I hated "company" growing up because this was not a "fun" thing to do on a weekend for a kid. I am grateful however, for my Mother teaching me the importance of teaming up as a family to help the overall goal of serving others through hospitality.
I know I could of done a Chuck E Cheese party or have it at another venue. However, I think in my mind what would Clayton most enjoy? What would given him the most happiness? In the end, as I considered this I knew the answer was a party here. He loves being home and loves even more when we have "company". Whenever people come over you should see the look on his face. It is priceless. On another note, he then proceeds to show off and talk a million times too fast. People who come over here can tell how much he appreciates them being here because all he can do is jump off the walls with energy. My son has a lot of energy but when people are here it multiplies time and time again. So, I knew that he would love this. Plus, last year we had his party here and I just kept thinking how amazing it was to see his face throughout the afternoon. How much fun he was having. Looking at at face just gave me a warm and fuzzy feeling I'll never forget. It was my "first" Mom-organized birthday party as he turned 2 and for his 1st birthday we were in Florida with no family/friends on a TDY for Sean's preparations to come to Vegas to work.
We look forward to everyone coming on Saturday. I feel like its Christmas again because I can not wait to see his face with the bounce castle, and to see him enjoy the cotton candy machine. I'm going to plan a few games for him to play with the kids as this year being 3 he can really understand what's happening. He's been to a few parties since and the whole cake and candle part is always so intriguing for him. He loved being sung to last year too so I'm so excited!! Its better than "my" birthday times a billion!!! I guess that's what is so awesome about becoming a parent is that transition from it's about "my" birthday to "what can we do that's awesome for our kids" birthdays!!
I will plan on posting a lot of fun pictures. Including, his transformer cake that I am praying turns out great. Also, I got Sean a Optimus Prime costume that I am hoping Clayton gets a kick out of. :) The really cute thing is, is that Sean isn't hating the idea of dressing up. Even wants to use it as his Halloween costume this year. Hee hee. So cute.
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.
I am taking a deep breath as I start my food prep tomorrow.
I spent an hour to organize my list to prevent day of stress!! :)
That is my goal. Prevention of stress. So that on Saturday I can enjoy my son celebrating his birthday and of course spend time with all our wonderful guests that have blessed us by wanting to come over.
3/17/10 - Being a sick Mommy = very long day
Last night before I went to bed I felt pretty awful. Little did I know what was ahead of me. I tossed and turned coughing which has been a very "normal" routine for me unfortunately due to the cold I've been struggling with. However, this evening was very different. I had chills and sweats. My head felt like it weighed a million pounds. My left side (woman part) was sore like I've never felt before and I could feel a good sized bump. I looked it up on-line and sure enough it was a clogged duct. I will never ever want to experience that again. Its a full-fledged sickness caused by nursing. Granted, it's not actually caused by the act of actually nursing but if I wasn't nursing it would have happened. So, it is soon that I know I will be weaning my son. I know this may sound selfish on my part. However, it is the opposite. He has been eating solid foods now for almost 2 months now and prefers them over any form of feeding. I know he enjoys spending that time with me however, he doesn't stay focused when doing it and is easily distracted away from it telling me that he is not getting his primary calories or hunger met through this.
My husband has been gone all week and does not return until late tomorrow. I have been trying to prepare for my oldest son's birthday party on Saturday. Having no help and little time to allow me to get a lot done has meant long days. Being sick today was probably the biggest downer I've had in awhile. Not only when you are sick do you want empathy and support but you "need" help. I had none. Okay, so my husband called me and said he felt bad that I was sick. I had friends facebook me telling me they hoped I would feel better soon. All this was nice and definitely encouraging. Nothing, can take the place though of someone being here with you and helping you physically. I think all Moms reading this can attest that if they have been sick and had no help is a very painful experience. I had a few moments where I literally was laying on the couch hearing my children do things and I could not lift my head off the pillow. I have not experienced feeling this way in so long. I felt like if I was walking around too much I would pass out. So, I had to trade the feeling of knowing exactly what my children are doing every second of the day versus passing out and having to call and ambulance. I know this sounds extreme but that is literally how I felt.
I just hope that the next time I feel like that, that Sean can be home to help me.
The blessing, is that at supper time I was able to put together a meal for my boys. Clean it up and take care of them for the rest of the evening after failing in the morning to be the Mom they needed me to be. I got through a very rough day and I couldn't of been more thankful to God for helping me do so.
I realize that a little experience of sickness is nothing compared to many who are struggling out there with life-threatening issues/diseases/medical conditions. I am not by any means comparing my illness with them or those situations. I tried to keep in perspective throughout the day how much worse it could be. It is more than difficult to remain emotionally balanced when you are sick but I attempted it. All in all the whole day came and went and I couldn't be more glad to put it behind me.
Tomorrow is a new day and I pray so hard that I am able to be a better Mom than I was today and feel good.
That is my fervent prayer and my greatest hope.
Health truly is wealth.
God bless you all and I hope and pray you are all feeling well!
My husband has been gone all week and does not return until late tomorrow. I have been trying to prepare for my oldest son's birthday party on Saturday. Having no help and little time to allow me to get a lot done has meant long days. Being sick today was probably the biggest downer I've had in awhile. Not only when you are sick do you want empathy and support but you "need" help. I had none. Okay, so my husband called me and said he felt bad that I was sick. I had friends facebook me telling me they hoped I would feel better soon. All this was nice and definitely encouraging. Nothing, can take the place though of someone being here with you and helping you physically. I think all Moms reading this can attest that if they have been sick and had no help is a very painful experience. I had a few moments where I literally was laying on the couch hearing my children do things and I could not lift my head off the pillow. I have not experienced feeling this way in so long. I felt like if I was walking around too much I would pass out. So, I had to trade the feeling of knowing exactly what my children are doing every second of the day versus passing out and having to call and ambulance. I know this sounds extreme but that is literally how I felt.
I just hope that the next time I feel like that, that Sean can be home to help me.
The blessing, is that at supper time I was able to put together a meal for my boys. Clean it up and take care of them for the rest of the evening after failing in the morning to be the Mom they needed me to be. I got through a very rough day and I couldn't of been more thankful to God for helping me do so.
I realize that a little experience of sickness is nothing compared to many who are struggling out there with life-threatening issues/diseases/medical conditions. I am not by any means comparing my illness with them or those situations. I tried to keep in perspective throughout the day how much worse it could be. It is more than difficult to remain emotionally balanced when you are sick but I attempted it. All in all the whole day came and went and I couldn't be more glad to put it behind me.
Tomorrow is a new day and I pray so hard that I am able to be a better Mom than I was today and feel good.
That is my fervent prayer and my greatest hope.
Health truly is wealth.
God bless you all and I hope and pray you are all feeling well!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
3/16/10 - My dearest Clayton...
To my dearest son Clayton.
From the moment you were born you were always keeping your Dad and I on our toes. You were always hungry and very active. You learned to climb stairs before you learned how to crawl. You started walking at 10 1/2 months teaching your Dad and I the real art of learning how to run after a toddler. Everyone who meets you always loves you. They laugh at your little dances and never ending conversations in your "own" little language that only "you" understand. For some reason you always have enjoyed playing with kids older than you. Making it sad for those that are your age or younger because they wanted to play with you too. Your Father and I can always get a good laugh out of watching or listening to you. And sometimes we both cry for all the ways you are refining us as parents.
The laughter you share can always bring a smile to anyone's face.
As your first year came and went we learned quickly that you are a boy with "no fear". This can be a great quality because it means you are brave and have a lot of courage. However, at times it causes your Dad and I to fear for all that you may encounter because of this bravery. Running away from us or trying to hide in stores or places thinking it a funny games makes our hearts race and our minds worry. All the words you have learned and the interesting personality that you continually develop has us always amazed.
After your second birthday we welcomed your little brother into this world and were worried that you would not "welcome" him yourself. We were completely wrong and were in awe as we saw you hold him and cuddle him with such love and admiration. You have not always enjoyed the many responsibilities and changes that have come with being a big brother but you daily remind me of how serious you take your role in this family. Learning to share and be kind is not something that any one can do perfectly all the time but I see you trying and I thank God for all the progress you have made in such a short amount of time. It is not easy having your whole life change and turn upside down because of a little baby but you have done it in stride and with great integrity for how young you are. I look forward to the close relationship I pray you and your brother have as you grow up together. I ask God to create a strong bond of friendship that will help encourage you as you soon realize how difficult this world can be.
Your third birthday is just days away and I am completely taken back by how fast it has gone by. I struggle daily with learning how to mold and train you in the best way I can to know how to be a "good" little boy. God gave you a strong-will much like myself which causes a lot of conflict in my attempts to teach you how to listen, obey and have as good as behavior as possible for someone your age. I want you to know how much I love you. How much I would give to ensure that what I'm doing today is the absolute best possible Mothering I am capable of giving to you. From the moment I became pregnant with you I was on my knees thanking God for giving me "you". I don't take you for granted one bit. Although, there are days were I am exhausted from trying to remain the "respected" and "obeyed" parent that I need you to see. I would never trade you for a million "non-strong-willed" children. You are so special and valuable a treasure to your Father and I. I hope you always know how important you are and how precious that we have always felt your life is. I pray someday with all my heart that you will become the man that God has created you to be. That you will ask Jesus to come into your life to be your Lord and Savior. To develop a strong and devoted relationship with Him that can never be duplicated anywhere in your life. I pray for your future spouse that she be a woman of God that is faithful and committed to living her life first for Him and then to you and your family. It would be my greatest honor to watch you grow up and get married and have a family. I do not know what the future holds but I do know who holds the future. He is a faithful and just God that works all things to the good of those who love Him. So no matter what the next year brings and whatever road that life takes us down. Please know how proud of you I am. How much you mean to me. The gift I see you are to our family. And how much I pray the absolute best for your life and future.
I also ask, that you please try hard to listen to me and sit down when we eat. Always remember how important nap time is and how much better it makes you feel afterward. And again, always try to listen to me. :)
**
I wrote this today for my son in the plan someday to read it to him when he is older and capable of understanding all I have written to him.
Maybe take some time today to write something about your children or a loved one that they would love to read or hear. Its always such a blessed thing to do to remember a special time or memory.
**
Have a blessed Tuesday!
From the moment you were born you were always keeping your Dad and I on our toes. You were always hungry and very active. You learned to climb stairs before you learned how to crawl. You started walking at 10 1/2 months teaching your Dad and I the real art of learning how to run after a toddler. Everyone who meets you always loves you. They laugh at your little dances and never ending conversations in your "own" little language that only "you" understand. For some reason you always have enjoyed playing with kids older than you. Making it sad for those that are your age or younger because they wanted to play with you too. Your Father and I can always get a good laugh out of watching or listening to you. And sometimes we both cry for all the ways you are refining us as parents.
The laughter you share can always bring a smile to anyone's face.
As your first year came and went we learned quickly that you are a boy with "no fear". This can be a great quality because it means you are brave and have a lot of courage. However, at times it causes your Dad and I to fear for all that you may encounter because of this bravery. Running away from us or trying to hide in stores or places thinking it a funny games makes our hearts race and our minds worry. All the words you have learned and the interesting personality that you continually develop has us always amazed.
After your second birthday we welcomed your little brother into this world and were worried that you would not "welcome" him yourself. We were completely wrong and were in awe as we saw you hold him and cuddle him with such love and admiration. You have not always enjoyed the many responsibilities and changes that have come with being a big brother but you daily remind me of how serious you take your role in this family. Learning to share and be kind is not something that any one can do perfectly all the time but I see you trying and I thank God for all the progress you have made in such a short amount of time. It is not easy having your whole life change and turn upside down because of a little baby but you have done it in stride and with great integrity for how young you are. I look forward to the close relationship I pray you and your brother have as you grow up together. I ask God to create a strong bond of friendship that will help encourage you as you soon realize how difficult this world can be.
Your third birthday is just days away and I am completely taken back by how fast it has gone by. I struggle daily with learning how to mold and train you in the best way I can to know how to be a "good" little boy. God gave you a strong-will much like myself which causes a lot of conflict in my attempts to teach you how to listen, obey and have as good as behavior as possible for someone your age. I want you to know how much I love you. How much I would give to ensure that what I'm doing today is the absolute best possible Mothering I am capable of giving to you. From the moment I became pregnant with you I was on my knees thanking God for giving me "you". I don't take you for granted one bit. Although, there are days were I am exhausted from trying to remain the "respected" and "obeyed" parent that I need you to see. I would never trade you for a million "non-strong-willed" children. You are so special and valuable a treasure to your Father and I. I hope you always know how important you are and how precious that we have always felt your life is. I pray someday with all my heart that you will become the man that God has created you to be. That you will ask Jesus to come into your life to be your Lord and Savior. To develop a strong and devoted relationship with Him that can never be duplicated anywhere in your life. I pray for your future spouse that she be a woman of God that is faithful and committed to living her life first for Him and then to you and your family. It would be my greatest honor to watch you grow up and get married and have a family. I do not know what the future holds but I do know who holds the future. He is a faithful and just God that works all things to the good of those who love Him. So no matter what the next year brings and whatever road that life takes us down. Please know how proud of you I am. How much you mean to me. The gift I see you are to our family. And how much I pray the absolute best for your life and future.
I also ask, that you please try hard to listen to me and sit down when we eat. Always remember how important nap time is and how much better it makes you feel afterward. And again, always try to listen to me. :)
**
I wrote this today for my son in the plan someday to read it to him when he is older and capable of understanding all I have written to him.
Maybe take some time today to write something about your children or a loved one that they would love to read or hear. Its always such a blessed thing to do to remember a special time or memory.
**
Have a blessed Tuesday!
Monday, March 15, 2010
3/15/10 - Tackling Monday instead of being blindsided!
As I started today I was very surprised to see I had slept in til 8:30. I don't remember the last time I slept that late. A year ago it was a normalcy for me as my son Clayton enjoys sleeping in (or used too) and since he is a night owl it was a requirement for him to be able to get enough sleep.
I had woke up early on Sunday due to my husband's departure chaos and with the mixture of sickness and daylight savings time I guess my body was wiped.
Even though I felt rested I still felt like I could of slept for several more hours. Nonetheless, my kids needed their Mom so up I went and started our day. Calvin and Clayton have been waking up together now so I have to juggle trying to feed Clayton breakfast while nursing my youngest Calvin. I have to admit that he didn't have the most "nutricious" breakfast so it may be my fault for his naughty behavior "pre-nap" time.
I pushed through enough to finally "make" something for the boys to eat after Calvin was happy enough to play by my feet while I baked some cinnamon muffins for them. Calvin "loves" baked goods. He is going to be my "carbs" boy. He and I will have this common bond of both being lovers of "bread" and the like!
After they ate till their tummies were full we headed outside to enjoy the last remnants of Las Vegas spring. Its supposed to get close to 70 today and by the end of the week be closer to 80. For those of you who have never visited Las Vegas you must be told that the sun here is much stronger than the midwest and other eastern areas of the U.S. So 80 degrees here feels closer to high 80's to early 90's depending on the time of the day.
My son Clayton's birthday is on Saturday and I am trying to get the house ready for company. I love planning my son's birthday parties! Its such an amazing feeling to put all this work into something and see his face as he runs around with the other children laughing and playing. It brings me such joy and fulfillment knowing that all my hard work was "so" worth it! So, as I prepare for this party on Saturday I have a lot on my plate having my spouse gone all week until Saturday morning. The cleaning, the cooking and shopping is all "on" me. I'm trying hard to tackle these duties and not feel overwhelmed. I know deep down the earlier I do the hard things in the week as my exhaustion kicks in at the end of the week.
I am praying as each day passes that my sickness will disappear making it a little easier to stay motivated.
I have done a lot of laundry today, cleaned the kitchen and put away a lot of odds and ends around the house. Tomorrow, I plan on doing my hard stuff. The bathrooms, the floors, the carpets, etc. which are my biggest challenges. I hope that I can keep my energy level up and stay positive so that by the time Saturday comes I'm not stressed, but really prepared!!
I can only pray!
Here's to birthday parties!!
Hope you all have a wonderful rest of your Monday!!!
I had woke up early on Sunday due to my husband's departure chaos and with the mixture of sickness and daylight savings time I guess my body was wiped.
Even though I felt rested I still felt like I could of slept for several more hours. Nonetheless, my kids needed their Mom so up I went and started our day. Calvin and Clayton have been waking up together now so I have to juggle trying to feed Clayton breakfast while nursing my youngest Calvin. I have to admit that he didn't have the most "nutricious" breakfast so it may be my fault for his naughty behavior "pre-nap" time.
I pushed through enough to finally "make" something for the boys to eat after Calvin was happy enough to play by my feet while I baked some cinnamon muffins for them. Calvin "loves" baked goods. He is going to be my "carbs" boy. He and I will have this common bond of both being lovers of "bread" and the like!
After they ate till their tummies were full we headed outside to enjoy the last remnants of Las Vegas spring. Its supposed to get close to 70 today and by the end of the week be closer to 80. For those of you who have never visited Las Vegas you must be told that the sun here is much stronger than the midwest and other eastern areas of the U.S. So 80 degrees here feels closer to high 80's to early 90's depending on the time of the day.
My son Clayton's birthday is on Saturday and I am trying to get the house ready for company. I love planning my son's birthday parties! Its such an amazing feeling to put all this work into something and see his face as he runs around with the other children laughing and playing. It brings me such joy and fulfillment knowing that all my hard work was "so" worth it! So, as I prepare for this party on Saturday I have a lot on my plate having my spouse gone all week until Saturday morning. The cleaning, the cooking and shopping is all "on" me. I'm trying hard to tackle these duties and not feel overwhelmed. I know deep down the earlier I do the hard things in the week as my exhaustion kicks in at the end of the week.
I am praying as each day passes that my sickness will disappear making it a little easier to stay motivated.
I have done a lot of laundry today, cleaned the kitchen and put away a lot of odds and ends around the house. Tomorrow, I plan on doing my hard stuff. The bathrooms, the floors, the carpets, etc. which are my biggest challenges. I hope that I can keep my energy level up and stay positive so that by the time Saturday comes I'm not stressed, but really prepared!!
I can only pray!
Here's to birthday parties!!
Hope you all have a wonderful rest of your Monday!!!
Sunday, March 14, 2010
3/13/10 Green Zone - Great Movie on my Mommy Hookie Day off
Yesterday, I was so blessed to get an opportunity to spend some time with a great friend of mine Jodie. It is wonderful to get to spend time with her because her experience here in Las Vegas is so similar to mine. Both choronologically and experientially as well. She moved here from England with her family a few weeks after my husband and I moved here. This is her first move away from her "homeland" and so we have a lot in common. We met in the Temporary Housing so we also dealt with the challenges and frustrations of living in a one bedroom studio apartment for several weeks with a family.
We enjoy spending time together so it was nice to get an opportunity to hang out yesterday. We haven't gotten a chance to do so in a long time so we had a lot of catching up to do.
She was very flexible and accomodating so I was able to get a lot done and have a lot of fun. Ate some lunch, ran a lot of shopping errands, and even got to see a movie.
The movie we ended up seeing was GREEN ZONE with Matt Damon. Wasn't the planned movie but with the time we had available due to the fact everything I was doing took way too long we decided to see this one. I wasn't too disappointed as a lot of people said it was a great movie.
It was such a great movie for so many reasons. It had a lot of "cliffhanger" moments and Jodie probably thought I was going to have a siezure or something because I could not sit still. I can't stand "not knowing" and I have something in mind I want to happen so when it doesn't I of course get nervous. This movie of course is a military based plot taking place during the Iraqi war. This movie hits close to home as my husband was deployed much of the time we were over there. Some of it thankfully, was before we were a couple. I was impacted by all the difference strategies and government conspiracies. The plot challenged the reasons and bad intentions when it came to invading Iraq looking for those weapons of mass destruction.
I enjoyed the movie quite a bit because it showed the very humanistic side of the Iraqi people. Showing a side to that part of the country that the masses here in America don't get to see. My young nephew served several months over there during this conflict and came back with many pictures of the Iraqi people welcoming them with open arms. If there was a real strong point in this movie it was this aspect. Granted it wasn't for lengthy periods of time because it was an action movie so a lot of guns, violence and blood. However, there are glimpses of this reality and I was very grateful that the director allowed this in the edit. People sometimes only believe what they see on tv, hear on the radio or read in a magazine. The media is a powerful source of influence in this world and sometimes its just nice when its used to "help" support our troops who are serving overseas and domestically rather than oppose even though they "say" they support. I have a loud and clear message for those liberals controlling the medias content that gets fed to us. You can not say in one side of your mouth, "we shouldn't be over there!" and the other side say, "but we support our troops." Its impossible.
I'm just saying......
Sorry, but this movie obviously hits home because now that I'm married to one of those troops makes it more real.
Have a great week everyone!
And if you get a chance to get out and enjoy yourself with a movie. Consider this one! You might like it as much as I did!
We enjoy spending time together so it was nice to get an opportunity to hang out yesterday. We haven't gotten a chance to do so in a long time so we had a lot of catching up to do.
She was very flexible and accomodating so I was able to get a lot done and have a lot of fun. Ate some lunch, ran a lot of shopping errands, and even got to see a movie.
The movie we ended up seeing was GREEN ZONE with Matt Damon. Wasn't the planned movie but with the time we had available due to the fact everything I was doing took way too long we decided to see this one. I wasn't too disappointed as a lot of people said it was a great movie.
It was such a great movie for so many reasons. It had a lot of "cliffhanger" moments and Jodie probably thought I was going to have a siezure or something because I could not sit still. I can't stand "not knowing" and I have something in mind I want to happen so when it doesn't I of course get nervous. This movie of course is a military based plot taking place during the Iraqi war. This movie hits close to home as my husband was deployed much of the time we were over there. Some of it thankfully, was before we were a couple. I was impacted by all the difference strategies and government conspiracies. The plot challenged the reasons and bad intentions when it came to invading Iraq looking for those weapons of mass destruction.
I enjoyed the movie quite a bit because it showed the very humanistic side of the Iraqi people. Showing a side to that part of the country that the masses here in America don't get to see. My young nephew served several months over there during this conflict and came back with many pictures of the Iraqi people welcoming them with open arms. If there was a real strong point in this movie it was this aspect. Granted it wasn't for lengthy periods of time because it was an action movie so a lot of guns, violence and blood. However, there are glimpses of this reality and I was very grateful that the director allowed this in the edit. People sometimes only believe what they see on tv, hear on the radio or read in a magazine. The media is a powerful source of influence in this world and sometimes its just nice when its used to "help" support our troops who are serving overseas and domestically rather than oppose even though they "say" they support. I have a loud and clear message for those liberals controlling the medias content that gets fed to us. You can not say in one side of your mouth, "we shouldn't be over there!" and the other side say, "but we support our troops." Its impossible.
I'm just saying......
Sorry, but this movie obviously hits home because now that I'm married to one of those troops makes it more real.
Have a great week everyone!
And if you get a chance to get out and enjoy yourself with a movie. Consider this one! You might like it as much as I did!
Friday, March 12, 2010
3/8/10 - (written 3/12/10) - Dominos Vegetarian Pizza what?
Ok, so I broke down and tried something I didn't think I'd like.
Something I preach often to my husband when I want to try more "complicated" dishes is "if you have never tried it how do you know you don't like it?"
So, I tried something I love, "pizza" in a healthier form.
And the amazing and surprising result?
I loved it.
I like vegetables though. So, if you don't enjoy veggies as a normal everyday side dish with your meal, you may not want to try this.
However, I really encourage all to give this new pie a try!
Dominos commercials saying they have revamped their pizza, well, I'll be the first to say, "yes, yes they have." The wonderful result is that its a great way to eat pizza without all the loaded grease and fat you get from pepperoni (my favorite), sausage and the like.
Give it try!
You never know, you might like it, or even love it? Like I do!!
Something I preach often to my husband when I want to try more "complicated" dishes is "if you have never tried it how do you know you don't like it?"
So, I tried something I love, "pizza" in a healthier form.
And the amazing and surprising result?
I loved it.
I like vegetables though. So, if you don't enjoy veggies as a normal everyday side dish with your meal, you may not want to try this.
However, I really encourage all to give this new pie a try!
Dominos commercials saying they have revamped their pizza, well, I'll be the first to say, "yes, yes they have." The wonderful result is that its a great way to eat pizza without all the loaded grease and fat you get from pepperoni (my favorite), sausage and the like.
Give it try!
You never know, you might like it, or even love it? Like I do!!
3/9/10 - (written 3/12/10) Yeah for making it to Bible Study!
Wasn't quite sure if my baby boy was going to feel good enough to go to church this morning but when he woke up I was pleasantly surprised to see him happy and energetic.
I constantly question myself for some reason when it comes to knowing what is the right thing to do when it comes to my children. I am learning to seek more confidence from asking God to help provide me with the wisdom and clarity in my parenting skills. Knowing what I'm doing is coming from what I know of Him and His word should allow me to have more of an identity consistent of Him and less of myself.
Going to church today I was so thankful because we began a new study called Sacred Marriage.
It has so far been a very intriguing and interesting study for us women. I enjoy learning more about how God sees marriage, and what His expectations and hopes for me are for marriage. Digging deeper into scripture to understand this and looking at being a wife in a more "servant-hearted" manner in the way that Jesus came to serve us.
The discussion questions were great and I look forward to what God can teach me through this study as the upcoming weeks continue.
I've only been married now for 4 years in May. Its been a very good and challenging learning experience. The crazy thing is, is I have learned more about my own "flaws" than I have anything else. This may sound a little bizarre but as the author of Sacred Marriage shared through the study today, "you want to learn about how much of a sinner you are, get married." We are such selfish creatures and that is for the most part where a lot of conflict begins. Thinking of "self" first instead of being "self-less". This is something I definitely need to do more of and learn more about. I struggle so much with "head" knowledge but not necessarily transferring that into my "heart" knowledge. Meaning, actually, "doing" all that I "know" is right.
So, as I proceed with this study I can not thank God enough for allowing me to get to church today and for being able to participate in this study.
If you are married or want to be married someday this is a great study. Look on Amazon.com and check it out! Seriously, some great food for thought!!
I love the group I am in and have thorougly enjoyed getting to know each and everyone in my small group. They are some great gals! I am truly blessed!!
Hope you all enjoy your Tuesday!!
I constantly question myself for some reason when it comes to knowing what is the right thing to do when it comes to my children. I am learning to seek more confidence from asking God to help provide me with the wisdom and clarity in my parenting skills. Knowing what I'm doing is coming from what I know of Him and His word should allow me to have more of an identity consistent of Him and less of myself.
Going to church today I was so thankful because we began a new study called Sacred Marriage.
It has so far been a very intriguing and interesting study for us women. I enjoy learning more about how God sees marriage, and what His expectations and hopes for me are for marriage. Digging deeper into scripture to understand this and looking at being a wife in a more "servant-hearted" manner in the way that Jesus came to serve us.
The discussion questions were great and I look forward to what God can teach me through this study as the upcoming weeks continue.
I've only been married now for 4 years in May. Its been a very good and challenging learning experience. The crazy thing is, is I have learned more about my own "flaws" than I have anything else. This may sound a little bizarre but as the author of Sacred Marriage shared through the study today, "you want to learn about how much of a sinner you are, get married." We are such selfish creatures and that is for the most part where a lot of conflict begins. Thinking of "self" first instead of being "self-less". This is something I definitely need to do more of and learn more about. I struggle so much with "head" knowledge but not necessarily transferring that into my "heart" knowledge. Meaning, actually, "doing" all that I "know" is right.
So, as I proceed with this study I can not thank God enough for allowing me to get to church today and for being able to participate in this study.
If you are married or want to be married someday this is a great study. Look on Amazon.com and check it out! Seriously, some great food for thought!!
I love the group I am in and have thorougly enjoyed getting to know each and everyone in my small group. They are some great gals! I am truly blessed!!
Hope you all enjoy your Tuesday!!
3/10/10 - (written 3/12/10) - Like a flash....crazy week
This week is flying by.
There are days that are so busy and stressful that the hours pass by like seconds. You go to write a check or put the date on some piece of paper and you literally have to look at your phone or ask someone what day of the week it is. That's the kind of week we're having here.
I'm learning about the sickness family relay race for the first time. We have been very blessed that since Calvin has been born that we really haven't had a lot of illness in our home. There could be many reasons surrounding this but either way we are grateful for our health. Calvin last week started the sickness merry-go-round and it passed from him to Clayton, to me and hopefully Sean doesn't get it. I have a lot of friends and family with multiple children and I know how tough it has gotten at their house when the sickness goes from person to person. Now, that I have experienced it, I can empathize more than ever!
Thankfully, as of today it has gotten better for us all, except I'm the most sick of all 3 of us.
Hoping tomorrow is better and that with God's help I can make it through.
As we all know there is no rest for the Mothers.
Have a wonderful Wednesday!
There are days that are so busy and stressful that the hours pass by like seconds. You go to write a check or put the date on some piece of paper and you literally have to look at your phone or ask someone what day of the week it is. That's the kind of week we're having here.
I'm learning about the sickness family relay race for the first time. We have been very blessed that since Calvin has been born that we really haven't had a lot of illness in our home. There could be many reasons surrounding this but either way we are grateful for our health. Calvin last week started the sickness merry-go-round and it passed from him to Clayton, to me and hopefully Sean doesn't get it. I have a lot of friends and family with multiple children and I know how tough it has gotten at their house when the sickness goes from person to person. Now, that I have experienced it, I can empathize more than ever!
Thankfully, as of today it has gotten better for us all, except I'm the most sick of all 3 of us.
Hoping tomorrow is better and that with God's help I can make it through.
As we all know there is no rest for the Mothers.
Have a wonderful Wednesday!
3/11/10 - (Written 3/12/10) - Healthy is wealthy!
Its been an interesting few days around here.
My youngest son as of last week had a bit of a stomach bug. He had been vomiting at least once a day and I could not figure out how to fix it. He had went to his well check up on the previous Wednesday and later that night gotten sick out of nowhere? Each day passed and he almost consistently found some point in the day to get sick. I was so frustrated, stressed and worried that I finally brought him in to see the Dr. this past Monday. They weighed him, took his temperature, his blood pressure/hydration level, his ears, lungs, everything. They had no advice for me other than to just let it resolve itself and if it gets worse to come back and they would start to run tests. The Dr. said that nothing about him made her feel like we would be back or that tests would be necessary. A few suggestions on how to keep him well hydrated but other than that no real diagnosis. This left me even more put out because like any mother I want to "fix" his issues and let him return to his normal routine.
As the next few days passed he again was finding a moment in the day to get sick. Only once and thankfully, not a large amount was he getting rid of. I finally, after talking to my husband convinced him to let me take him to the Chiropractor I have been seeing here. I have always been a believer of chiropractic care because I grew up wtih it. My mother had me getting adjustments when I was a little, little girl. We were all about natural remedies and wholistic treatments. The natural health food store was something my brother and I were very familiar with. Now being an adult and having my own children I have come full circle back to my roots and decided that it was worth a try to bring Calvin in.
Once, I had Sean convinced to supporting me in bringing Calvin in I encouraged him to get a consultation with the Dr himself. So, he agreed and made an appointment.
Thankfully, Calvin is finally feeling better and including Wednesday and today hasn't gotten sick. He hadn't gotten sick prior to his appointment on Wednesday but definitely didn't get sick after either. I'm not 100% sure if the adjustment he received helped him a lot or a little but all I know is that he is feeling better. I'm so thankful. I think I have learned from this experience is that I will first consider bringing my boys in to the Chiropractor first before the base hospital Dr.'s. I mean if they get a cut that requires stitches I'm not going to bring him to get an adjustment. However, if there are other health issues we're dealing with I'm going to definitely lean towards bringing them to my Chiropractor first. Like I told Sean if we never try something how can we insist its not going to work or help at all?
The interesting thing is that Sean's x-rays showed he is definitely in need of some help. Issues relating to working at a desk and some from just wear and tear over the years. I see him being open to natural medical treatment and I am praying as time continues he will "feel" a difference in his day to day life from relief of some of these aches and pains.
I plan on having Clayton also treated to make sure that he doesn't have any areas of concern. I want him and Calvin to grow up healthy and happy just like any mother. If there is anything I can do to help provide that I am going too.
One thing that I learned that I would of never thought any harm about was the fact that Calvin sleeps on his stomach. Loves it. Its his favorite position. He feels the most safe and comfortable in this position. However, it is impacting his neck muscles due to the length of time he is spending having his neck held on one side. I can feel the little tiny knots that have developed from this and we are working on massaging them out. I would of never thought to "look" for these nor would I have considered changing this habit. So, we are working on moving him after he falls asleep and position pillows in his crib to help him resolve this habit sooner than later.
I realize there is no way I can keep my family 100% perfectly healthy but I am trying my best to investigate new options to helping us be, and feel better.
I have learned very early in life that being healthy makes us all wealthy.
Have a great day!
My youngest son as of last week had a bit of a stomach bug. He had been vomiting at least once a day and I could not figure out how to fix it. He had went to his well check up on the previous Wednesday and later that night gotten sick out of nowhere? Each day passed and he almost consistently found some point in the day to get sick. I was so frustrated, stressed and worried that I finally brought him in to see the Dr. this past Monday. They weighed him, took his temperature, his blood pressure/hydration level, his ears, lungs, everything. They had no advice for me other than to just let it resolve itself and if it gets worse to come back and they would start to run tests. The Dr. said that nothing about him made her feel like we would be back or that tests would be necessary. A few suggestions on how to keep him well hydrated but other than that no real diagnosis. This left me even more put out because like any mother I want to "fix" his issues and let him return to his normal routine.
As the next few days passed he again was finding a moment in the day to get sick. Only once and thankfully, not a large amount was he getting rid of. I finally, after talking to my husband convinced him to let me take him to the Chiropractor I have been seeing here. I have always been a believer of chiropractic care because I grew up wtih it. My mother had me getting adjustments when I was a little, little girl. We were all about natural remedies and wholistic treatments. The natural health food store was something my brother and I were very familiar with. Now being an adult and having my own children I have come full circle back to my roots and decided that it was worth a try to bring Calvin in.
Once, I had Sean convinced to supporting me in bringing Calvin in I encouraged him to get a consultation with the Dr himself. So, he agreed and made an appointment.
Thankfully, Calvin is finally feeling better and including Wednesday and today hasn't gotten sick. He hadn't gotten sick prior to his appointment on Wednesday but definitely didn't get sick after either. I'm not 100% sure if the adjustment he received helped him a lot or a little but all I know is that he is feeling better. I'm so thankful. I think I have learned from this experience is that I will first consider bringing my boys in to the Chiropractor first before the base hospital Dr.'s. I mean if they get a cut that requires stitches I'm not going to bring him to get an adjustment. However, if there are other health issues we're dealing with I'm going to definitely lean towards bringing them to my Chiropractor first. Like I told Sean if we never try something how can we insist its not going to work or help at all?
The interesting thing is that Sean's x-rays showed he is definitely in need of some help. Issues relating to working at a desk and some from just wear and tear over the years. I see him being open to natural medical treatment and I am praying as time continues he will "feel" a difference in his day to day life from relief of some of these aches and pains.
I plan on having Clayton also treated to make sure that he doesn't have any areas of concern. I want him and Calvin to grow up healthy and happy just like any mother. If there is anything I can do to help provide that I am going too.
One thing that I learned that I would of never thought any harm about was the fact that Calvin sleeps on his stomach. Loves it. Its his favorite position. He feels the most safe and comfortable in this position. However, it is impacting his neck muscles due to the length of time he is spending having his neck held on one side. I can feel the little tiny knots that have developed from this and we are working on massaging them out. I would of never thought to "look" for these nor would I have considered changing this habit. So, we are working on moving him after he falls asleep and position pillows in his crib to help him resolve this habit sooner than later.
I realize there is no way I can keep my family 100% perfectly healthy but I am trying my best to investigate new options to helping us be, and feel better.
I have learned very early in life that being healthy makes us all wealthy.
Have a great day!
3/12/10 - I'm back!
I'm sure some of you have really missed my blog this past week.
(Ha, ha, ha - yeah right....... the above is a joke.)
In all seriousness, I have missed writing all week. Its been a rough few weeks for us. Sean working odd hours and now this week I got really sick. I think my body just decided that it needed a break and was worn out. I'm going to request that my body update me on its schedule so that I might be better prepared next time. (Hee, hee if only it worked that way.)
I have said many times over and over how difficult it is to be a sick Mom. I had a throbbing headache all day yesterday and not to mention a really achy/sore body. To take care of two very active children through all that was sort of impossible. I told my husband how terrible of a Mom I was because all I could do is lay down on the couch and pray for God's protection of my children. I know this sounds awful and completely irresponsible but Sean could not come home from work to help me so I was on my own. My youngest son stayed close by me as he always does and thankfully my oldest son although still mischievous was reasonably well behaved.
Nap time couldn't come soon enough and I was so thankful for the opportunity to lay my head down and get some much needed rest.
I was blessed to find when I woke up that my husband had surprised me and found a way to come home early to help with the kids. I was so thankful and incredibly grateful to him because I know his work load was not light this week. He thought first of me and the kids instead of himself and his job. I praise God for giving me such a very thoughtful and considerate husband. He has mentioned often these past few weeks how full his work plate is and so I realized the sacrifice he made for me.
It was so nice to be able to rest and after I woke up a hot bath made me feel even better.
I am glad to report that today I am finally feeling close to 100%.
Each time I get sick I always keep telling myself what a blessing it is to have your health. Each day I wake up I need to always praise the Lord for my health. It should and is going to become an unconditional requirement of my daily schedule.
I hope all of you are healthy and have had a wonderful week.
Happy Friday and I pray your weekend be full of quality time with family and friends.
(Ha, ha, ha - yeah right....... the above is a joke.)
In all seriousness, I have missed writing all week. Its been a rough few weeks for us. Sean working odd hours and now this week I got really sick. I think my body just decided that it needed a break and was worn out. I'm going to request that my body update me on its schedule so that I might be better prepared next time. (Hee, hee if only it worked that way.)
I have said many times over and over how difficult it is to be a sick Mom. I had a throbbing headache all day yesterday and not to mention a really achy/sore body. To take care of two very active children through all that was sort of impossible. I told my husband how terrible of a Mom I was because all I could do is lay down on the couch and pray for God's protection of my children. I know this sounds awful and completely irresponsible but Sean could not come home from work to help me so I was on my own. My youngest son stayed close by me as he always does and thankfully my oldest son although still mischievous was reasonably well behaved.
Nap time couldn't come soon enough and I was so thankful for the opportunity to lay my head down and get some much needed rest.
I was blessed to find when I woke up that my husband had surprised me and found a way to come home early to help with the kids. I was so thankful and incredibly grateful to him because I know his work load was not light this week. He thought first of me and the kids instead of himself and his job. I praise God for giving me such a very thoughtful and considerate husband. He has mentioned often these past few weeks how full his work plate is and so I realized the sacrifice he made for me.
It was so nice to be able to rest and after I woke up a hot bath made me feel even better.
I am glad to report that today I am finally feeling close to 100%.
Each time I get sick I always keep telling myself what a blessing it is to have your health. Each day I wake up I need to always praise the Lord for my health. It should and is going to become an unconditional requirement of my daily schedule.
I hope all of you are healthy and have had a wonderful week.
Happy Friday and I pray your weekend be full of quality time with family and friends.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
3/3/10 - Breaking the stress cycle....or trying too..
Waking up at 6:30am lately has become a daily routine not a special occasion. Thankfully, I am getting a much better quality of sleep in my new bed which allows me to wake up rested. I remember waking up at 8:00 and wanting to stay in bed. Now, I am able to get and go. And go is what I definitely do!
Talking to my Dr today about my back's progress in some of the healing and improvement process we are working on he shared with me that my lower back is healing a lot faster than he thought it would. It has stabilized finally and now it is a matter of just continuing to watch its development. I was so happy and relieved to hear this because my degeneration is the worst in my lower back. After feeling positive he then went on to share with me that my neck and upper back which were my lesser problem areas (but still problems) are not correcting as well because he said I carry all my stress in those areas. Listening to my current lifestyle and all that I do on my own due to Sean's schedule he said is wearing on my body. I'm sure it wears on all of of us Moms. I was at church on Tuesday for my Bible Study and had a minor back spasm that caused me to yelp a little as I bent down to pick something out of the stroller. A lady nearby thought she had stepped on me accidently and shared an apology as she passed. I told her that it was my bad back and had nothing to do with her. I laughed saying I've got an old lady back. She said in response we all have bad backs were Moms.
I think it somewhat funny because I know so many women overseas in third world countries that probably carry more weight on their heads than I ever have in my arms.
However, I'm trying to consider what the Dr said this morning about where I carry my stress. As I drove away from the Dr office I thought about his feedback and what I could do to improve my problem by just mentally changing my routine or habits. While thinking about it and driving at the same time I realized I was holding my shoulders tight and my neck stiffly. After recognizing what I was doing I shook my shoulders trying to relive the strain. Who knew I did this? I certainly did not. Once this epiphany came to me I caught myself doing this very same thing several times in a few hours.
I'm unsure what this could do to improve my back's healing progress but its certainly worth a try. Surprising isn't it how much our "mental" health has to do with our physical health? It is true though when they say it is all connected. If we are healthy and happy mentally and emotionally more than likely our body will follow suit.
I am challenged by this to focus on removing some of the stress in my life. In the Bible Jesus talks about how many of us could add an hour to our lives if we stopped worrying. (Matthew 6) For me, its not only several hours I could recover but hopefully, my back as well.
I hope that the rest of you are having a good day and more than that mentally are having a good one as well!
Talking to my Dr today about my back's progress in some of the healing and improvement process we are working on he shared with me that my lower back is healing a lot faster than he thought it would. It has stabilized finally and now it is a matter of just continuing to watch its development. I was so happy and relieved to hear this because my degeneration is the worst in my lower back. After feeling positive he then went on to share with me that my neck and upper back which were my lesser problem areas (but still problems) are not correcting as well because he said I carry all my stress in those areas. Listening to my current lifestyle and all that I do on my own due to Sean's schedule he said is wearing on my body. I'm sure it wears on all of of us Moms. I was at church on Tuesday for my Bible Study and had a minor back spasm that caused me to yelp a little as I bent down to pick something out of the stroller. A lady nearby thought she had stepped on me accidently and shared an apology as she passed. I told her that it was my bad back and had nothing to do with her. I laughed saying I've got an old lady back. She said in response we all have bad backs were Moms.
I think it somewhat funny because I know so many women overseas in third world countries that probably carry more weight on their heads than I ever have in my arms.
However, I'm trying to consider what the Dr said this morning about where I carry my stress. As I drove away from the Dr office I thought about his feedback and what I could do to improve my problem by just mentally changing my routine or habits. While thinking about it and driving at the same time I realized I was holding my shoulders tight and my neck stiffly. After recognizing what I was doing I shook my shoulders trying to relive the strain. Who knew I did this? I certainly did not. Once this epiphany came to me I caught myself doing this very same thing several times in a few hours.
I'm unsure what this could do to improve my back's healing progress but its certainly worth a try. Surprising isn't it how much our "mental" health has to do with our physical health? It is true though when they say it is all connected. If we are healthy and happy mentally and emotionally more than likely our body will follow suit.
I am challenged by this to focus on removing some of the stress in my life. In the Bible Jesus talks about how many of us could add an hour to our lives if we stopped worrying. (Matthew 6) For me, its not only several hours I could recover but hopefully, my back as well.
I hope that the rest of you are having a good day and more than that mentally are having a good one as well!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
3/2/10 - How fast time flys.....
I can't believe that in 18 days my oldest son is going to be 3 years old! I am going to have a 3 year old in "my" house! I'm going to be a Mom of a 3 year old! ME? I'm no spring chicken mind you but just the thought of that age being involved in my life truly is an amazingly unbelieveable thought.
Seems like just yesterday I found out I was pregnant with him. Sean and I had just gotten married in May and found out right after our honeymoon that he was getting deployed in July. Not just any time in July but a day before my birthday. We were relenting about this of course and so we decided to take a "fun" trip to Kansas City before he was going to leave. The entire time we were there that day (a very warm day) I was thirsty and a little dizzy. Granted, I have my ditsy moments like anyone does but this day I was "really" out of it and felt a little nauseous at times. Sean kept saying, "you're pregnant, I know it." I thought this man was crazy because we had just gotten married May 20 and I was on birth control to prevent anything from happening. I decided after returning from our honeymoon to stop taking it for many personal reasons. One of which was to see if we could get pregnant but this was all before finding out he was leaving. I told Sean how horrible it would be for me to be pregnant with our first child with him being deployed. He responded thinking that it wouldn't be so bad because "not much happens in the first three months any way." (Which was the same amount of time he was going to be gone - a little longer than 3 months.) I laughed and thought how funny that would be but never thought it would become a reality.
The day he was going to leave I told him I would take pregnancy test to relieve him of any worry of me being pregnant only to find out that I wasn't. I wanted to tell him in person that his thoughts that I was were wrong instead of a cold impersonal phone call across the ocean. So the moment came and before I knew it, it was almost time for me to bring him to the base to drop him off. I was so preoccupied with trying to get all that he needed packed and so I had forgotten than I had the test sitting in the guest bathroom with the results. As I faintly remembered that I should go grab it before we were ready to walk out the door I casually walked in the bathroom to grab the test. As I looked down I went to read the "NOT PREGNANT" results in the window of the test only to see something I was not prepared to see "PREGNANT"! WHAT????>? How did this happen?? (Ok, so I knew how it happened but seriously was not in any state of mind to see this. Oh, my goodness I was so surprised I screamed, Sean came around the corner and saw me holding the test only to look at me and tear up. I was still in shock as he held me in his arms only for me to still be holding my hand to my mouth and the other the test. Still in range for me to stare at it.
It was definitely not the easiest first trimester because we had some unexpected circumstances arise early in the pregnancy that were thankfully, nothing to worry about. However, for a first time Mother without her husband available they were very dramatic, stressful and emotionally trying.
Its so interesting to remember these memories now wondering if the pregnancy has anything to do with the child's personality?? I mean if you have an easy pregnancy, does that mean you have an easy child? Well, I'm not Dr or psychic but I do know that Clayton at times is a little dramatic, he causes some stress, and definitely likes to try my emotions. However, just like when he was inside my belly he brings me happiness everyday and warms my heart in a way that no one else in this world can. I am so thankful for this child and I could not ever repay the Lord what for what He has given me in and through this child.
We named him after my Father who passed away a few years before I met Sean. He also has his Great-Grandfather's middle name who Sean likes to give credit to for inspiring him into the military. He is named for very special men in our lives and rightly so as he is one of the most special men in our lives.
Time flies by so fast. It makes it all that much more important for us to value and appreciate each day for what it is. An opportunity. An opportunity to do more, love better, and share our gifts more generously.
I thank God so much for the blessings I have through my husband and children. For our health, protection, and provisions we could not be more grateful.
Thank you Lord for giving to us such wonderful gifts.
Why do we ever worry knowing you are in control of all.
Thank you for the time you have given me in this world. I know I am not promised a tomorrow so I will live for today - in the moment - thanking you for each one you give me.
I hope for you all a blessed week and a great rest of your day.
Seems like just yesterday I found out I was pregnant with him. Sean and I had just gotten married in May and found out right after our honeymoon that he was getting deployed in July. Not just any time in July but a day before my birthday. We were relenting about this of course and so we decided to take a "fun" trip to Kansas City before he was going to leave. The entire time we were there that day (a very warm day) I was thirsty and a little dizzy. Granted, I have my ditsy moments like anyone does but this day I was "really" out of it and felt a little nauseous at times. Sean kept saying, "you're pregnant, I know it." I thought this man was crazy because we had just gotten married May 20 and I was on birth control to prevent anything from happening. I decided after returning from our honeymoon to stop taking it for many personal reasons. One of which was to see if we could get pregnant but this was all before finding out he was leaving. I told Sean how horrible it would be for me to be pregnant with our first child with him being deployed. He responded thinking that it wouldn't be so bad because "not much happens in the first three months any way." (Which was the same amount of time he was going to be gone - a little longer than 3 months.) I laughed and thought how funny that would be but never thought it would become a reality.
The day he was going to leave I told him I would take pregnancy test to relieve him of any worry of me being pregnant only to find out that I wasn't. I wanted to tell him in person that his thoughts that I was were wrong instead of a cold impersonal phone call across the ocean. So the moment came and before I knew it, it was almost time for me to bring him to the base to drop him off. I was so preoccupied with trying to get all that he needed packed and so I had forgotten than I had the test sitting in the guest bathroom with the results. As I faintly remembered that I should go grab it before we were ready to walk out the door I casually walked in the bathroom to grab the test. As I looked down I went to read the "NOT PREGNANT" results in the window of the test only to see something I was not prepared to see "PREGNANT"! WHAT????>? How did this happen?? (Ok, so I knew how it happened but seriously was not in any state of mind to see this. Oh, my goodness I was so surprised I screamed, Sean came around the corner and saw me holding the test only to look at me and tear up. I was still in shock as he held me in his arms only for me to still be holding my hand to my mouth and the other the test. Still in range for me to stare at it.
It was definitely not the easiest first trimester because we had some unexpected circumstances arise early in the pregnancy that were thankfully, nothing to worry about. However, for a first time Mother without her husband available they were very dramatic, stressful and emotionally trying.
Its so interesting to remember these memories now wondering if the pregnancy has anything to do with the child's personality?? I mean if you have an easy pregnancy, does that mean you have an easy child? Well, I'm not Dr or psychic but I do know that Clayton at times is a little dramatic, he causes some stress, and definitely likes to try my emotions. However, just like when he was inside my belly he brings me happiness everyday and warms my heart in a way that no one else in this world can. I am so thankful for this child and I could not ever repay the Lord what for what He has given me in and through this child.
We named him after my Father who passed away a few years before I met Sean. He also has his Great-Grandfather's middle name who Sean likes to give credit to for inspiring him into the military. He is named for very special men in our lives and rightly so as he is one of the most special men in our lives.
Time flies by so fast. It makes it all that much more important for us to value and appreciate each day for what it is. An opportunity. An opportunity to do more, love better, and share our gifts more generously.
I thank God so much for the blessings I have through my husband and children. For our health, protection, and provisions we could not be more grateful.
Thank you Lord for giving to us such wonderful gifts.
Why do we ever worry knowing you are in control of all.
Thank you for the time you have given me in this world. I know I am not promised a tomorrow so I will live for today - in the moment - thanking you for each one you give me.
I hope for you all a blessed week and a great rest of your day.
Monday, March 1, 2010
3/1/10 - Manic Monday.....
This was one of those days that nothing seems to be easy. My husband needed to sleep in today as he was trying to prepare his sleeping schedule for his week of working nights. He ended up having to wake up early because I wasn't here to help with the baby. I was at my Dr. appointment for my back and brought my oldest son Clayton with me as he woke up at 6:30am! I'm not so sure why he has been waking up so early. I walked through the door to my husband coming down with the baby in arms. I felt so bad but was hoping he could go back to bed and get some more rest. Unfortunately, for him that was not going to be the case. Sean needed to get the truck registered but was unable to do so before it expired. So, because I was already to go I told my him I would go to the DMV. Here in Vegas there is a "huge" disorganization in the DMV culture. For some reason, this state likes to do everything the hard way. I'm not sure why? But it just makes the simplest of things complicated. I won't go into details but when talking to the woman I spoke to today she said there is not "one" day that they are overloaded and busy. I had to wait in line for 2 hours before I got to talk to anyone. I waited an hour and a half before getting my "waiting" number and then another 30/40 minutes to get to talk to someone. It is a nightmare.
I did not handle this situation well and in the end mistreated my husband because of all the anger and frustration that was caused by "lack" of paperwork they required for us to get the registration completed. Thankfully, I will be able to go back in a few days and get it taken care of but it will be a juggle to figure out when to get the "smog" check they require, and then to head back to the DMV to go through the circus of people that it entails to get this task completed. Living in such a large city is so overwhelming for so many reasons. Growing up I always wanted to move to a big city (living on a farm most of my life at this point). I wanted the "fast" life, the covenience that living in the city provided that the farm did not, and so many other wonders that the "city" life presented. Now, having been in this "big" city for almost 2 years now, I regret my lack of contentment for the simple things. I love the quote "the best things in life are free". It is so true and I should remember that more often.
Mondays are always hard because it means the end of the weekend of quality time with family, freedom from work stresses and schedules, and other fun festivities that take place on Saturday and Sunday. My Monday wasn't so manic. At times a little tedious but it wasn't horrible.
I have been thinking a lot about Paul's letter to the Corinthians talking about - "finding contentment in all situations." I need to do that in my own life. Its been a real difficult challenge for me to find true contentment out here. I'm homesick. More so than I ever thought was possible. I have always considered myself an independant and self-sufficient person. This experience out here has never proved me more wrong. Tears in my eyes I think about how hard it is to be so far away from all that I ever knew my whole life. God could not of found a more "different" and "difficult" city for me to transition away from "familiar". Las Vegas has been to me one of the most "gut wrenching" see what you're made of experiences. I thought tonight for the first time pretty much since we moved here how much I would miss some of the things I have come to find as comforting here. Crazy enough, my "gym" workouts have helped me a lot. The instructors know me now and its a wonderful feeling to get to know them and vice versa. Cheers is an old tv show that I used to watch with my family growing up. It was a bar that all these people would come to hang out and talk. I don't condone the hanging out in a bar everyday to hang out with your friends. However, I love the theme song, "Where everybody knows your name...." Finding community in your life wherever you are or wherever you live is such an impacting and encouraging experience.
I hope that for the rest of the time that we are out here I can ask God to help me everyday to make the most of it. No matter the 120 degree weather for months. No matter the fact that we have no family out here. No matter the fact that there are some "real" backwards things out here. No matter anything..... I want to start a new leaf and try my very best (with God's ever present help and strength) to find contentment in where we are "right" now.
My children and husband help so much with this.
Looking in the eyes of my boys creates a joy inside me that can not be explained. Having my husband here and not deployed gives me such peace and happiness.
Lord, I am sorry for my "JONAH" attitude of living here. I didn't want to go to "NINEVAH" (Las Vegas), and I ran. The boat was in the storm and I told the guys to throw me overboard. I've been in the belly of the whale now for awhile. I'm ready for you to spit me up and for me to share the message. I have so much to learn in this life but I am so thankful that you are still willing to teach me in spite of all the reasons why you shouldn't. I love you Lord.
Amen.
I hope that the rest of you had a great Monday. Hopefully, no one else spent any time at any DMV anywhere. :) However, if you did I'm sure you had a way better attitude than I did. :)
Blessings for your weeks!
I did not handle this situation well and in the end mistreated my husband because of all the anger and frustration that was caused by "lack" of paperwork they required for us to get the registration completed. Thankfully, I will be able to go back in a few days and get it taken care of but it will be a juggle to figure out when to get the "smog" check they require, and then to head back to the DMV to go through the circus of people that it entails to get this task completed. Living in such a large city is so overwhelming for so many reasons. Growing up I always wanted to move to a big city (living on a farm most of my life at this point). I wanted the "fast" life, the covenience that living in the city provided that the farm did not, and so many other wonders that the "city" life presented. Now, having been in this "big" city for almost 2 years now, I regret my lack of contentment for the simple things. I love the quote "the best things in life are free". It is so true and I should remember that more often.
Mondays are always hard because it means the end of the weekend of quality time with family, freedom from work stresses and schedules, and other fun festivities that take place on Saturday and Sunday. My Monday wasn't so manic. At times a little tedious but it wasn't horrible.
I have been thinking a lot about Paul's letter to the Corinthians talking about - "finding contentment in all situations." I need to do that in my own life. Its been a real difficult challenge for me to find true contentment out here. I'm homesick. More so than I ever thought was possible. I have always considered myself an independant and self-sufficient person. This experience out here has never proved me more wrong. Tears in my eyes I think about how hard it is to be so far away from all that I ever knew my whole life. God could not of found a more "different" and "difficult" city for me to transition away from "familiar". Las Vegas has been to me one of the most "gut wrenching" see what you're made of experiences. I thought tonight for the first time pretty much since we moved here how much I would miss some of the things I have come to find as comforting here. Crazy enough, my "gym" workouts have helped me a lot. The instructors know me now and its a wonderful feeling to get to know them and vice versa. Cheers is an old tv show that I used to watch with my family growing up. It was a bar that all these people would come to hang out and talk. I don't condone the hanging out in a bar everyday to hang out with your friends. However, I love the theme song, "Where everybody knows your name...." Finding community in your life wherever you are or wherever you live is such an impacting and encouraging experience.
I hope that for the rest of the time that we are out here I can ask God to help me everyday to make the most of it. No matter the 120 degree weather for months. No matter the fact that we have no family out here. No matter the fact that there are some "real" backwards things out here. No matter anything..... I want to start a new leaf and try my very best (with God's ever present help and strength) to find contentment in where we are "right" now.
My children and husband help so much with this.
Looking in the eyes of my boys creates a joy inside me that can not be explained. Having my husband here and not deployed gives me such peace and happiness.
Lord, I am sorry for my "JONAH" attitude of living here. I didn't want to go to "NINEVAH" (Las Vegas), and I ran. The boat was in the storm and I told the guys to throw me overboard. I've been in the belly of the whale now for awhile. I'm ready for you to spit me up and for me to share the message. I have so much to learn in this life but I am so thankful that you are still willing to teach me in spite of all the reasons why you shouldn't. I love you Lord.
Amen.
I hope that the rest of you had a great Monday. Hopefully, no one else spent any time at any DMV anywhere. :) However, if you did I'm sure you had a way better attitude than I did. :)
Blessings for your weeks!
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